A CONFESSION
I have a confession to make. Putting this in writing makes me incredibly nervous. Here goes -
Some days (many days) I have no idea what I'm doing.
And I'm scared.
I don't mean I've forgotten how to take pictures. I mean I feel like I have no idea how to be a professional photographer. I'm venturing into a highly competitive industry, in an economy that is not exactly sunny. Yikes. Is there even ROOM for another freelancer? Many nights have been spent staring into the dark, wondering How the hell did I get here?
I didn't plan to be doing this now. This may not work out. Even if I want it to.
And that's what scares me.
But on the other hand, my prior job, the steady one, the one I'd been at six years, did not work out either. The position got eliminated. And though I worry, I wouldn't go back. That job was so stressful that every day usually ended with a headache or tears. I'm only now starting to realize the impact it made on me emotionally and creatively. By the end it felt as though nothing remained.
Yet I managed to keep shooting.
These were all taken in the last few months of employment. They made my clients happy. It was work I was proud of. And I made them while really only functioning at half capacity. Imagine what could be achieved by going full throttle?
I want to find out.
A REQUEST
I'm asking for your help.
This is not a handout request. I want to work. I want to shoot. I want to get each and every one of you in front of my lens, to share your stories and passions. I want to blaze on all cylinders and create things which will thrill you, and provide services and products to make your lives that much brighter.
If you think I can do that - if you think I'm the right photographer for you OR SOMEONE YOU KNOW - please pass on my info. (I don't just do costume - I do Senior Portraits, Beloved Sessions, and Infant Sessions as well!)
A Love Letter
I love doing this. And I love the people who give me hope. That's YOU.
Thank you. Thanks for reading, thanks for your support. When things got really dark, having my photography and your support got me through. Every "Like," every "Thumbs Up," every Share and Reblog was a little boost. The next few months loom as unknown monoliths. I don't know for sure what's getting built next. But with everybody's help, I might - just MIGHT - manage to do this.
If you think I'm the woman for the job, shoot an e-mail to ctgraphy@gmail.com
Pass it on to people you think I can help. I'm looking forward to it.
And once again -